Watch You Walk Away

I like you,but I'm gonna LIE about it

Cause I can't predict your response to the TRUTH

Cause I haven't been hurt, not by you 

And I'd like to keep it that way

It's easy that way 

And if I could do forever I'd like to keep you guessing 

Without you questioning what lies beneath this cool 

Aka what I really feel for you

that's my head talking 

Things smashed to PIECES  when I let what lies beneath my CHESS

Determine my MOVES 

I won't pretend that I don't need it 

But neither will I try cause I can't be sure if It needs me

So I'm in this water and I'm knee deep 

And won't go any further until your words ease me

Into a,more reassured state

And your lips won't budge

Is that pride or fear 

I don't know but ,it's the same substance that seals my lips now

But didn't then...and now look at the position I'm in

So I think I need to think 

If this works out then what next 

If this were to ESCALATE then define the next STEP

We can secure TODAY but what happens TOMORROW

Cause it cant sort its self out 

Without..interference 

And its screaming for help now

And on this we might just miss out 

If it doesn't scream louder than our 

Mutual doubts , cause we mutually feel Ishhh no doubt but,

Wont convert these feelings to words

Unless we're sure that they're mutually felt

Hold on what if I'm WRONG

And my fears were RIGHT

And I've mistaken your being polite for..

Something else
 
Is this a two way thing or solely in my mind

Am I thinking out of line

I don't want to MISS out on an opportunity 

Nor risk being MISled

So I'd rather let the contents of my HEAD order my LEGS

Should I sit here and regret not attempting to fly or 

Or be a "societal man" and Leave the security of my nest 

I mean let's face it 

In many ways you're more than worth the risk 

But I'd rather watch some other bastard jump off the cliff

Judging my decision on his outcome

But then what if you catch him 

Solely because my confidence didn't match his 

My pride would help my eyes store their water like a cactus

But still I probably wouldn't be too happy

I'd lie and probably convince those on the outside 

But inside I'd feel like the explicit term 

for the cargo of a soiled nappy

That's the honest truth

And they say IGNORANCE is bliss

But right now I'd rather KNOW what to do

If not I'll do nothing ,hold my peace and let this fade

Protect my pride and dignity 

And let them live another day,

 CRIPPLING myself as I watch you WALK away